Joy Of Living

On our way home earlier, I bought a piece of marble cake - but really enjoying it, thanking God. Did you know, I've never really appreciated food all my life? I eat because I have to, just so its enough to nourish my body, with no other meaning to it .. but since I got to know Jesus, a simple act of eating becomes such a miraculous thing, as though yes I am experiencing miracles every day, a few times a day! Yes, I've been in the wilderness for farrrrrrrrrr toooooooooo long! But I thank Jesus He found me and came for me! Even simple act of showering, I appreciate it so much .. I have sooo much to be thankful for, it gives me great joy to be alive!

Made Me Glad

I will bless the Lord forever
I will trust Him at all timesHe has delivered me from all fear
He has set my feet upon a rock
I will not be moved
And I'll say of the Lord

You are my shield, my strength
My portion, deliverer
My shelter, strong tower
My very present help in time of need

Whom have I in heaven but You
There's none I desire beside You
You have made me glad
And I'll say of the Lord

You are my shield, my strength
My portion, deliverer
My shelter, strong tower
My very present help in time of need

Source: Lyrics Download
YouTube Music Video: Made Me Glad, Hillsong

Dalamnya Kasih-Mu Bapa

So love this song and the anointing worship ... thank you Jesus ...

Music & Lyrics : Andre Hermanto
Music Arrangement : Steve Tabalujan
Album : TrueWorshippers “All Things New”

DALAMNYA KASIH-MU BAPA
TERLEBIH DARI S’GALANYA
PENGORBANAN YANG TERMULIA
S’LAMATKANKU

DENGAN DARAH YANG TERCURAH
AMPUNIKU ATAS DOSA
KUBERSUJUD KEPADA-MU
OH YESUSKU

ENGKAU KU SEMBAHKAU YANG TERINDAH
PULIHKANKU DENGAN DARAH-MU
ENGKAU KU SEMBAH
BAPA MULIA
SEUMUR HIDUPKU KU MAU MENYEMBAH-MU

Source: Candra Wijaya Blog
You Tube Music Video: Dalamnya Kasih-mu Bapa

Super Happy

I am so so so so sooooooooooo happy ... just so happy I get to worship God every single day - when time is on my side, the Lord is gracious. Like a bird just released out from its cage, everyday I am flying in freedom ... freedom to love God and to be loved by God ... for He first gave His all for me ... free .. I am so free to love and be loved by God, I have to say it over and over again ... Thank you Jesus.

True Love

From time to time, what happened (or did not happen) between me and KW still puzzles me .. everything seems OK, we seem to love each other alot, yet when people ask me, I am still abit stoned, yeah even after 5 years now sometimes I still question myself without any answer. But thanks to the Lord, since I have casted this upon Him, to His wisdom and in His arms .. rather than trying to deal with it in my lousy ways ... even from time to time as sweet memories overwhelmes me ..

Today, as I was talking to an old friend of mine, talking about the past: I came to this as the Lord helped put everything nicely in an understandable format .. all the while, I could only described what happened but didn't know what happened ... someone told me, well .. he didn't love you in the first place ... many times I hear about "not being ready", "its not that I dont love you", all kinds of answers but none satisfied my soul, except now that the Lord corrects me with His love as I understand that all the long He always had my best interest in mind .. infact, He gave me what was the best of the best ... So, going straight to the point, this is what happened, this is what I said to my friend ... "In a way I am also very selfish.. because I cannot wait .. infact if I can I wanted to get married at 21!!!! that was me ...... i think I was sooo self-centered to myself, my needs .. my wants...my timeline ..... i really didn't know what it means to truly love someone"

Yeah .. that was it, I didn't know what love is, until now that I have found true love, from the one Who is love Himself, the author and creator of love .....

God Is Good

People are shying away from churches not because they are rebelling against Jesus but because they have not been introduced to the Jesus who gives the guilty sinner the gift of no condemnation. Too often, non-believers have only been introduced to a religion, a set of riles that only judges and condemns them .... (Destined to Reign, pg. 164) .. What makes things worst is, believer who call upon Jesus's name accepts these condemnations and live under the law or a mixture of law and grace, the old and new covenant and unable to bear good fruits in their lives in which manifest from their wrong believing, resulting in non-believers looking at them thinking "Such, hypocrites" .. They do not desire the life of these Christians because what manifested from their lives they could not witness the love of God .. yes even non-believers know what God is like .. and they expect God to be good ... and God is good.

Cool Fresh Morning

I feel soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo blessed walking in the cool fresh real air. Makes me want to wake up earlier and earlier each day just to be out in the nature! Just came back from sending ANA to school - it's a priviledge! Then I get the chance to chat with CSK for a while, as he waits for his bus, sharing about what the Lord and I have been doing together, and he suggested we should wake up early every weekend now - how nice! Thank you Lord for giving me this position of influence, a place where I can be available to your precious ones! So happy too thinking about little little things - that I can scratch/scrub my back (and I do!), that I can smell the sun (and I do!) .. everyday is like a miracle ... life itself is so precious but the One who made all these possible is even more precious, altogether lovely! I really cherish each day, more than ever before, thank you Lord for helping me come to this point - that even to appreciate all you have done for me and for mankind you lifted your finger so I can be at greater heights seeing greater things from up above.