Me, My Parents, Family & My Little Family
So, priorities, priorities, priorities! They say you must first take care of yourself first before you can take care of others. Okay, so first its me - what have I done for myself? Hmmm, that's a question mark! Then its my parents - their home loan and daily expenses and hubby's Mom's monthly allowance, then my Analina and hubby's family expenses - and whatever daily chores to be a good Mommy and good wife, and I should also find ways to take care of granny, then my bro and his family in anyway I can.. But the rest of the money I earn goes to payment for Mom and Dad's home loan ... I try to give all I can, yeah sometimes I really do and nothing's left for me, I don't even have any savings and no insurance policy .. how does that feel? Gosh and I am turning 30! I can't explain ... Life goes on! They say it don't matter .. so I really need to be strong from within... But looking at the big picture once again, I do think I neglect myself sometimes.. so let's just try to put some balance here huh, I think Buddha is right.. the middle-way.. ... I don't quite enjoy living on the edge and perhaps I am not living for today....
Own Biz ...
So, no extra time, high cost of living, no financial freedom, living at the edge eventhough not spending on luxury but merely groceries, basics and on our kids and parents? So, maybe a our own biz as a solution. We've got a brand new idea this month! Gosh.. always having ideas, where's the action!? Okay, okay, just give me a few months to turn around the feasibility study. At least, I am trying!? Been looking around for some office space and got a few good ones. Right now, will go ahead and finalize the LLC setup and hope to get into operations in Sept. after our trip back to KL in Aug. So from now till then I will have some time to work on the contents. Ooopps, what is this all about? Will keep you posted!
Staying Healthy: Physically
Since my last posting about exercising, nope, I have not renewed my Nikko membership! - *shame*! and lots of procrastination! Anyways, Sol and I decided to go jogging instead. The plan is to leave the office at 5.30pm run all the way down to Tumon back up to the office! The only thing is boss may not be too happy about this!
Keith's Birthday
My buddy Keith! Sent him a birthday card too.. and thankful that he exist in my life. Always wishing him all the happiness in the world :)
Weng's Birthday
Sent Weng an email and sent him card but it's going to be late! Too long queue at the post office! Sorry bro!
My Little Family
So, finances wise, I am now having the responsibility to pay all our parents (mine and hubby's) monthly allowances, my parents home loan, and our yearly travelling expenses - inc. air fare and such.. Hubby doesn't have enough wor.. (If you see him, remind him to help me out more at home OK?! otherwise I die standing!) Need more brilliant ideas so I don't get eaten up by all these financial commitment! Don't even have budget for personal grooming and clothings, how about make-ups .. not cheap you know.... so, how to stay pretty ah like this plus all the daily chores, and Analina - going to become 'wong min poh' very soon no?? hmmm! Okay, just kidding.. brush teeth 2 times a day, shower enough, and 3-step facial wash - should be OK huh??! Gota find solution! :P
Staying Healthy: Spiritually
Yes, still slacking. Spoked with Darren today and I am motivated! A few words that I have in mind too.. GROW IN PERSON.... yes... this is something I must follow-up on, despite whatever daily chores or workload at the office.. So, what's the plan? I think I'll start with my daily prayers.. please check on me! Christian church that I plan to make a visit this August.. http://www.theactschurch.org/ hey but I still want to read some Buddha's text...
My Little Family
OK, so whatabout family vacations? No more personal vacations I suppose! Perhaps later huh? Anyways, want to go to States (visit Michelle) (visit Aunt), how about Las Vegas (for fun), Perth (re-live sweet memories?? shhh), Hong Kong (all the time).. so many places! But every year prolly need to make 1 visit back to KL and KB and I've only got 10 days annual! I don't think the above make sense, we can't have everything! Plus, where got budget eh? So, as much as I'd like to make 2 vacation trip a year, I guess I'll tell myself, not yet! So, let's see what we have for now: Mark Analina 6 years old and we will start travelling for holidays.. after all, they say, no point taking a toddler overseas if they were much younger! Okay, so this is good, give Mommy enough time to save for vacation money! 2004-2008, travel once a year back to KL and KB .. 2009 onwards (Analina 6 years old) we will plan for those fun vacations! How's that?
Mother's Day
It seems I only remember most about my Mom on this day (this weekend-remind me to call OK?), and hardly about myself - ha, maybe I still don't want to admit that I am not a Mom!! Noh, I am every single bit one, I guess, will wait for Analina to be old enough, make me something special ;) Have ordered a dozen roses for Mom (Noel website www.noel.com.my ) and hope she receives them! I know she's is not very much into flowers, but hey, though not every women love flowers but they sure don't hate them! It's always nice to receive some fresh things in life once in a while... reminding us how precious we are at this moment in time on Earth, esp when all things are impermanent! Though I love to receive flowers too, but I'd tell myself - treat others the way you want to be treated.. give and you shall receive! *yeah right, what a consolation to myself* ha! Okay, life goes on!
Diploma in Interior Design? Forget It!
Having said that, that also means forget about the Diploma. It's meant to be that way! I have to chill!
My Little Family
Well, remember about my 5 year plan? Starting March 2005? March went well, April went well but that's the end of it. My 5 year plan (pay off Mom/Dad home loan) - and in sync with my dreams and goals in life, it's short-lived. I have to scrap this plan and take a slow-down road. Today, hubby mentioned about finances and basically we don't have enough with my existing contribution. I don't think I have much choice but to rework my plan and tell myself to I just have to pay Mom/Dad homeloan just like everyone else, until after 25-30 years repayment.. since I have to allocate more for my little family.... I can't get another job or go make more money, basically I am all booked for everyday chores and work especially with Analina. I just won't have enough energy to get another job or do side jobs - let alone I haven't started my exercise routine. Unless hubby can baby sit more and help with the chores, but nah, he could play with her and all but I usually have to pick-up the mess! Oh well, stay positive!.... End of this chapter and I will have to think about the next new chapter. I have to have patience and accept challenges gracefully.. I'll still stay and mean time work for the current company till the end of the year. If the business is viable, then I have the option to stay on the job and plan to do so for another few years. After that, I am probably out of here.. that's the storyline for now...
