Me, My Parents, Family & My Little Family

So, priorities, priorities, priorities! They say you must first take care of yourself first before you can take care of others. Okay, so first its me - what have I done for myself? Hmmm, that's a question mark! Then its my parents - their home loan and daily expenses and hubby's Mom's monthly allowance, then my Analina and hubby's family expenses - and whatever daily chores to be a good Mommy and good wife, and I should also find ways to take care of granny, then my bro and his family in anyway I can.. But the rest of the money I earn goes to payment for Mom and Dad's home loan ... I try to give all I can, yeah sometimes I really do and nothing's left for me, I don't even have any savings and no insurance policy .. how does that feel? Gosh and I am turning 30! I can't explain ... Life goes on! They say it don't matter .. so I really need to be strong from within... But looking at the big picture once again, I do think I neglect myself sometimes.. so let's just try to put some balance here huh, I think Buddha is right.. the middle-way.. ... I don't quite enjoy living on the edge and perhaps I am not living for today....