Fight The Monster

Though I am trying to be very understanding to a point I can accept the facts positively, I must admit I am fighting the monster hard! That's because alot of logic and common sense exists in me that's building up my defenses to succumb to the unpleasant beast. Yeah, I know you're busy, and I try to communicate with you directly, though you did not reply to me directly but through someone else, I honor it too. However, even when I suggest alternatives, your 'appointed person' also rejects it on your behalf, claiming its words from you. I too honor that and to not miss out anything, for fear of assuming things, I would too check with you if you also feel the same. I do believe if two person want to make things work, they can, somehow, esp we're talking about an outing of less than 5 hrs including travelling. But when one is lack of will to make it happen, yeah then today is a busy day, tmr will also be, next week and next month too - there will always be 'later' or perhaps sometimes 'never'. Mean time, I really have to fight the monster inside me who would turn me into a beast if I dont win the battle! Already, much of my good emotions is not under control, I can sense it, and it affects the people around me - how innocent. The fire is flaming but I shall put it to rest! Till we meet, I pray that you will not be the cause of the growing monster in me/others and I shall not harbour such a place for this monster, and I pray that you will be more considerate and caring for others by action, effor and time, not silence. Targetted recovery time must be less than 12 hours :)