Mini-Church - Patience

Today's also a holiday and HB cooked shrimp pancake (so very sweet of him!) - I have been so very happy esp to know he willingly wants to go meet MC family members. We had a very good session and discussed about patience from the Book of James and every session had been such great help to me personally. Have patience when 1) things are uncontrollable, 2) people are unchangeable and 3) events are unexplainable ..

We also had another sub session thanking each other for all the warmth and support given so far and I definitely have lots of be thankful for. Interesting enough HB talked and whatever was in his mind - yes he said it, although it should not be a surprise to me because I knew he thought of me that way, but he decided to tell everyone that I tried to change him and that if you love someone, you shouldn't change that person. As oppose to my 'own thinking' - I do change for the better. If someone tells me about an area which I should change, I take note of it and attempt to work on it because I believe what is more precious than a good advice. So I kinda expected him to at least believe the same, but obviously he doesn't .. and as a matter a fact, seek confirmation from the group openly about that! At that point, from chinese idioms, my face literally.... well I lost my face completely! Worst thing is, his comments did not represent what I think is the truth, that is, I haven't even been wanting to change him because I had been so conscious about it. If I wanted to, I would have said ALOT OF THINGS. Nevertheless ...... since I've recently learned about God - and how I don't have to change my HB, but instead, do my part well - what I was originally designed to do, I could leave it to God to deal with my HB --- maybe lack of a better word I am sure I did not phrase this sentence properly. But yet, I kept quiet and let him speak all he wanted to say, whatever that made him feel good, even if it means putting me down. Miraculously enough, shortly after, he even went on talking about his own faults and weaknesses - I could see him humbling himself - something he wouldnt even do at home with me! If would have been, 'he knows it inside but he would admit to me outwordly about his own flaws-infact blame me for it sometimes!!!' OK if he reads this, I am doomed! But anyways, back to getting serious ...-- I praise the Lord for showing us the way ... bridging the gap and phasing out what I believe is a vicious cycle of marriage suffering when one takes matter in his or her own hands...