Children Are Treasures

I learned so much today - even just a short session, but the whole process, from the slides to today's sermon .. I just want to make sure I learn to be a better person, and more specifically, a better parent to my little precious treasure. Definitely want to lead her to the right way and work on being a loving person - no scolding is a must! Since Dale Carnegie's read up, I am all for it but I have not been exactly always very successful.. but recently I renew my commitment and gave myself a deadline - before ANA turns 3, I oughta make sure I always be gently with my words. Since she was born, I did decide to be so, but when she turned 1, expectation of me to take up the role of diciplinarian totally invited the big little monster inside me to take full control. Since then, I felt I was always putting up a show when it comes to diciplining since KC expects me to. I know I am never comfortable with it, but just went on and on doing it .. at one time I thought this isn't right and thought KC was a bad influence since he made me do it. But I also remembered what Mother Theresa said .... at the end of the day, it's between you and Him, you can't say, ohhh my so and so made me do this and that, so I am not accountable for it ..... then I thought to myself, now I am stuck! But everyday must come, so I went on with that role, the one who raises her voice and get mad when I have to.. then it became.. get made even when I didn't have to! I realized its all so wrong but I kept doing it because I am expected to. Only recently I found the courage to say, I am not going to do this anymore. I want to revert to my original intention, to be that loving, gentle person to my little princess. When I am soft-spoken, I am said to be weak or i.e. not strict enough la la la .. but now I don't want to care what others think, just want to do what's right and I found my answers ...